My discipler

"I don't simply scold people one.. but I simply whack people =)"

Sharon's the first person in ECF who has irritated me so with her persistence and ways not-understandable to me.

She's also the first in ECF I verbally fought with.

She's the one whose eyes I fear gazing on my work because she is bound to say something.

She's the one who scolded me for being unfocused.

However,

Sharon's also the very first person I ever used the word "jie jie" on.. before that, I didn't even know what it meant.

She's the first I worked in a ministry (ppt) with in ECF.

She ministered to me during Victory Weekend, she took me in and persisted with me as her disciple, she's been so gracious as to tolerate my arrogance and pride.

She taught me humility, focus, efficiency, leadership, patience...

In her own ways, she makes me feel special.

If to be a disciple means to follow and imitate, then I'm glad she's my discipler.

God, thank You for disciplers.

(disclaimer: not that no one else has impacted my life, but note the topic - this post is about my discipler)

MP3

I have NO idea how this came up, but it was during a discussion about language and nicknames.. and THIS is how our conversation turned out:

Carol Yong says (1:55 PM):
and you,..can be.
Carol Yong says (1:55 PM):
PING PONG!
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:55 PM):
.......
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:56 PM):
IM ALREADY MERR PENG WHAT MORE DO U WANYT
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
teeheeeheeeee
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
hahahahha
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
MERR PENG PING PONG!
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
mp3
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
:Dhahaha
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
hahahahahahahahaha
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
hahahahahahahha
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
stroke of genius, tht
Carol Yong says (1:56 PM):
hahahahha
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:57 PM):
YOR
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:57 PM):
MP3
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:57 PM):
U ARE SO LAME
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:57 PM):
U ARE SO LAME
Merr-Peng !ping says (1:57 PM):
SO LAME
Carol Yong says (1:57 PM):
i am such a genius
Carol Yong says (1:57 PM):
MP3!!!

LAME JOKE 3rd DEGREE!

Discipleship

I remember the time when I was clueless about discipleship - every time a discipleship session came around, I was nervous (if I had to share a word or recite a scripture), I was reluctant (because I usually wasn't ready), I didn't exactly like it (because I was nervous and reluctant)

Then as I advanced in my spiritual life, I became used to discipleship. I took it as a routine, as a time of sharing, a time of building, but I remember not always looking forward to discipleship because of the impact of the lessons I'd have to learn each time we had a session - due to my short-tempered-ness, pride and arrogance, it was.. hard! I recall a lot of anger, irritation, rebellion which came to the point of much undesired verbal disputes and resulted in nights of guilt.

Now, I'm not saying discipleship is bad! Let me finish. Note I mentioned, due to my personal issues, discipleship was hard. Contrary to how I used to feel about discipleship not too long ago, I have learned to not just appreciate it, but love it and desire for it.

So how did I come from boring, frustrating and guilt-trip to appreciate it, love it, desire it?

Well.. could be many factors. Could be I've grown to be more teachable... could be I've been built-up many times in discipleship.. but also could be the discipler =)

Sounds like I'm trying to butter up to my discipler, does it? I will talk about my discipler in the next post haha

I have come to discover and embrace discipleship as quality time spent with people close to me, where we get to share our life experiences, what we've learned, what we heard from God; a place of building character, building personality, building passion; a group where I really feel loved, where we can pray for one another, where things are revealed and we can be sure it will remain P&C.

It's very hard to explain clearly how differently I perceive discipleship as compared to before.. it's so different, I really cannot believe it myself.

I really have no message of moral to my post today, just felt like voicing out my thoughts on the subject (which I normally don't do, voicing out that is). But even so, I hope my post encourages my readers and sheds new light on matters they may not have been clear about.

God, thank You for discipleship.

Praise God!

Week 11 and the workload of my final project is overwhelming.

So many scriptures come to mind, it's hard to pick just one...

Hebrews 12:5,6 - And you have forgotten that word of encouragement that addresses you as sons: "My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."

Hebrews 12:7 - Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father?

Job 23:10 - But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.

Gal 3:4,5 - Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one should carry his own load.

James 1: 2-4 - Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

James 1:2-4 has always been an "impactful" scripture for me. I am extremely burdened by my work, and for some reason I am rather unproductive in the days.

Sometimes I wonder if I do enough for God? Sometimes I wonder if I'm doing enough at all?

Time is too fast, my progress is too slow. God, Creator of all time, if You would slow down the clock for me, so I could advance a little further, I would appreciate it so..

God, Creator of all creativity, if You would refresh this artsy mind You have gifted me with and provide me with ideas and visions of visuals and media that I could make happen to glorify Your name and extend Your Kingdom, I would appreciate it so..

God, Creator of man, thank You for reminding me of You, Your endless love and faithfulness. Take my hand and lead me through this excruciating final semester to the level of honoring You with my work.

Praise God!

DIVE IN 07 pics

Coming soon! In the process of editing...

Hebrews 12:15

If a serial killer wanted to kill you, what would u rather do: kill him or put him behind bars?

This was actually a question a friend of mine asked me. I looked at her, admittedly a little confused, and answered, "In my own opinion, I'd rather put him behind bars."

My friend asked, "Aren't you afraid there's a serial killer out there that could come and kill you?"

Yes I am afraid of a serial killer out there to kill me.

But at the same time, I feel that by killing a serial killer, you may be disposing of one person, but ten more may rise up and you wouldn't even know. What good does it do to kill him? What good does it do to yourself (murder is a sin), to him (he will experience eternal death) and to the rest of the world (who are mostly oblivious of his existence)?

I've heard stories where people have gone to jail, become changed men and come out living new lives! I've heard stories where people in jail have come to find God, repented of their ways and turned to walk with God! And in some places, prisoners actually have honest jobs, which can build them up as well as the community!

I'm not saying all prisoners will turn out as such. Some never change, some become worse, etc. But by being in prison, there is that slim chance they will be changed, whereas people can't "die and change" as someone just mentioned to me.

When I gave my answer, here's what my friend said, "You know, out of 20 people that I asked... you're the only one who said you'd put him in jail."

Wow. If that were true statistics, that 1 out of 20 will send a serial killer to jail, and 19 others will kill him, then how much better are we than the serial killers? If there were 1 billion people in the world, and 19 out of 20 would kill serial killers, then we'd have 950 000 000 000 killers on our hands. That's 950 million.

Even if only 1 out of every 20 people said they'd kill, then out of a billion, we'd have 50 million killers.
Obviously, this is just a hypothetical calculation. But what say if?...

What is your mindset like? When you answer this question, whether you prefer to kill or put the killer behind bars, what were you thinking? Do you know why you answered that? Do you have a reason?

Maybe your reason is not as lengthy and "complicated" as mine. Maybe it's more of so. But the only explanation for my reasoning is because of the wonders I have heard/seen God do in lives of even prisoners - dead or alive! It's really amazing - God can truly do things beyond our imaginations!

Hebrews 12:15 - See to it that no one misses the grace of God (NIV).

Celebrity Craze

Mel Gibson came to LUCT today for some launching. Sounds exciting but I wasn't very ecstatic about it. He may be a celebrity, but he's still another person like everyone else I meet everyday. Some people joked that I should go meet him and hand him the Sold Out CD and we laughed about it, but I spent the night pondering over that very thought.

See, this is where my perspective comes from: One of my dreams/goals in life is not to meet a celebrity or to hug one or to get his/her autograph or to have pictures taken with the person. Those are great and all, but how much will it impact my life and other people's lives? I could make others excited, but I could also make them jealous. I could be happy for the moment but it will become just another memory in the back of my mind.

What one of my dreams/goals is... is to impact the industry that I am heading into - entertainment! So while I laughed at my friends' joke, my mind began searching far and wild dreams! I began to ask myself questions like: What if I do give Gibson the Sold Out CD? is it possible that through the songs, he might draw closer to God? Is it possible a seed will be sown? Is it possible something will change? If Mel Gibson changes for the good of God's kingdom, wouldn't he be a great influence because of his fame and status? What if this is actually a chance for me to take to start sowing seeds in the entertainment industry?

Sounds impossible? Well, my God is of the impossible. And because I know all things are possible with God, I never stopped pondering.

Eventually I made a deal with God. I told God that if He made our paths cross, I will bless Gibson with the CD. If not, then there really wasn't much I could do. I saw Gibson, but I never had the chance to go close to him. Actually I think I missed a chance by going out to lunch. I felt I should have stayed back and approached Gibson in Wings Coffee.

I can't be sure whether I missed out a great opportunity God sent to me or not. If I had confirmation that I had, I wouldn't be able to express how sorry I am. But all the same, missed opportunity or not, I believe God will continue opening doors for me along my journey. And next time, I need to be sure or those opened doors =)
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I was talking to my classmate who got to see Gibson along with crowds of other students and from our conversation, I could sum up a few points that I feel are important. It's difficult to piece all my thoughts together from this afternoon, so I may not make perfect sense.

Mel Gibson came to Malaysia unnoticed and I think he wanted it to remain that way. If he desired paparazzi, cameras and screaming fans, he would have openly announced his very presence in Malaysia. So when he entered LUCT and staff and fans with cameras began pouring out of the college, I think he became rather annoyed.

I don't mean to speak as if I know him well. There is evidence to show he preferred a quieter welcome:

1. He hid his face from cameras
2. He verbally mentioned that he did not expect a crowd to greet him

And it's interesting how he gets all the attention but his director friend who walked with him today still remains unknown (by most at least)! It isn't because he's directed movies that people "love" him, it's because he's acted. Which brings me to conclude, it's not the person they love, it's just the status.

Key word: celebrity.

A lot of times when people meet a celebrity, they want to receive something - fame, jealous stares, a hug, an autograph, a smile, a wave.. or perhaps steal their clothes, possessions and even hair. Each to his own motive. But not for myself - I wanted to meet Gibson to give him something that might have that slimmest chance to make a difference in his life and the entertainment world.

Perhaps you think I'm crazy, disillusioned, weird... but that's really how I think, no fooling. And I don't care what you think. If this is the dream God has for me, then He is with me, and no one can be against me =)

DIVE IN 07 - Discover a Real World

The month of August was so eventful! The new semester started, work is already pouring in, but most important of all, August was FILLED with th essence of DIVE IN 07!!

For those who didn't come for DIVE IN 07, I'm so sorry but you'll never realize how much you've really missed! Stories cannot possibly describe how much happened during the camp, pictures worth 1000 words can't come close to giving you the experience of DIVE IN 07! But I will do my best to tell you about the camp from my personal point of view.

Just to make things clear, I'm not coming from the POV of any other camp participant. I started off as a diver (a participant) but eventually became quite occupied with taking photos of the camp (being part of the photography team). So my POV will be the mix of two different angles.

Being a diver was great fun. Wow, meeting my teammates (Team 4, yea!) and working with them, creating cheers, abusing our flag, learning songs and dances - it was all real great! Once I started to get more involved with photography, however, I was a bit more distant from my group (sorry, guys!) and unfortunately, I wasn't able to say goodbye to them personally after the camp ended! Team 4 @ Green Lic Pies, if any of you are reading this, I send my apologies and I hope I get to meet you again SOON so we can catch up!

As awesome as it was to be a diver, I feel being a photographer was even more worth the experience. I must admit, I almost didn't want to be a diver because I had been one in DIVE IN 06 and I really felt like contributing more to the camp! You know what, God is so good because He catered to my wants even though I had never mentioned them to anyone! I helped out in the photo ministry more than initially planned, I helped set up chairs in the hall and I even was given a chance to help set up a game!

Don't misunderstand me - I'm not saying this out of pride that I'm more "important" than any other diver. I'm really saying it out of humility and thankfulness that God was so good to have made use of me in even the smallest areas!

And God is really so wise in how He makes things work out, because by putting me in positions where I was, in a way I obtained the "freedom" to be where I wanted during the events (eg: I could sit at the back of the hall, I could move around to take photographs..). The reason I am so thankful for this "freedom" is because it gave me the liberty to just be there to pray! I believe one of the reasons God put me where I was (besides being able to contribute physically) is because He wanted me to pray.

I hope I'm not going in too deep for you. Let me explain my mind and heart for DIVE IN 07. Before the camp, I was constantly, faithfully praying for the camp, for things to go smoothly, for the place and especially for the PEOPLE. I didn't want this camp to be just any other fun camp for students, but I wanted it to be something different for people to experience! I wanted people to benefit from it, or be blessed by the content of the camp.

During the last week before DIVE IN 07 happened, I fell into a tired state and my spirit was very low. During the camp itself, God revealed that though I had stumbled that week, He was still faithful and still had me securely in His hands! God was so good to explain to me that I had been relying on my own strength and not His, and that is why I had become weak. Then I received a prayer that confirmed what I had heard from Him. So i recommitted my life and efforts to Him and He really showed me the great and unsearchable things that I did not know during the camp! (Jeremiah 33:3)

So what do I mean about having the liberty to be there to pray? I need you to understand that I really believe in the power of prayer. God is so real with His ear always ready to hear and His hand already outstretched to perform wonders and miracles upon the requests of those who love Him! So in the mornings, during services, almost anytime I wasn't snapping photos, I was praying! Like I said, I wanted people to be blessed and receive more than just "fun" from the camp. So that is what I prayed for - that people will be blessed, strengthened, touched by God's love that has so touched me!

And do you know what? It is amazing because through my weaknesses, God shows His strength! I was extremely tired on the 2nd night, and nodding off just about every five minutes. But at the same time, I didn't want to cease praying so I silently, and admittedly distractedly, asked God to keep me focused. Very suddenly, toward the end of the service, I began praying and I hardly knew what I was praying because my mind was still half asleep! I feel that this really was the Holy Spirit of God working in me. As I continued to pray, for no reason at all, I began to cry! Until now, I am amazed because it was unlike any other kind of weeping. I neither knew why nor where the tears were coming from until I felt God speak to me and tell me that He was taking things into His hands now, that He was now doing what He wanted to be done in the camp! It's like He wanted me to rest and I really felt peace and a sense of joy deep in my heart that it made me cry even more.

God really is so wonderful. DIVE IN 07 provided me an encounter with God like no other encounter I've had before. It moved and encouraged me so much that when I joined the IMU students for their morning devotion on the last day and Victor asked everyone: What is the next level for you?, I immediately had an answer. I had not thought about it before, but I believe this is the next step God wants me to take.

After DIVE IN 07, I want to become a prayer warrior for God. "Prayer warrior" is what people have been calling me each time I pray for the college, other people, etc. But I never actually embraced the title until the Holy Spirit filled me on the last night of camp. I believe that if things are out of my capabilities, God can still do wonders in those areas. I believe that when we pray, doors are opened for God to show his glory and power. I believe that each time we cry out to God, each time we present a request, He hears us and is ready to act.

Lord God, nothing equals up to Your love and power. I feel that taking this step to becoming a "prayer warrior" for You will certainly be more challenging than just casually stepping in. I know I will face obstacles but I want to be an overcomer as You have called me to be. So I pray that You hold me close to You and walk with me on my journey. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Time flies far too quickly

Left without any notice, didn't I? =)

I've been in Singapore for the past four days! Holiday with my family, and for the first time in a long time.. I didn't take any pictures on a holiday trip... I haven't been very motivated to pick up my camera, lately..

I was supposed to check out some schools too but time did not permit us to do so... the lack of it, that is.

It is the 8th of July, my new semseter will start soon and before I know it, I will have graduated.. It may seem like I have plenty of time now, but I suppose I really should decide on where to go/what to do exactly after my college days in LUCT are over.. Time flies far too quickly.

I have added Aaron's blog to my links. He's an awesome friend, a talented graphic designer and a strong man of God. Do check his blog out =)

Can we forget the work progress?

Hi, I'm back

I'm not much of a blogger.. I never have anything to write about.

But since I'm writing now, do visit http://divein07.blogspot.com/2007/07/dive-in-2007-is-here.html ...

Look familiar? Yes, DIVE In is back, and it will be greater than ever.

Never heard of DIVE In? Then, take this chance to check it out.

Bookmark that link and watch for updates - trust me, you won't regret the effort =)

Signing out,
Merr @ Peng

Servanthood

Steven once said something about learning new things everyday. I agree - life is so full of surprises, some good ones and some rather unpleasant ones..

I may not have been part of Eaglepoint for very long, but I can bear true witness and testify to those who came after me that it does not take very long for one to see how spirit-filled this house and the people in it are.

What do I mean by that statement?

They're really far too many examples to provide, some of which I can hardly remember in detail now, but for one, the heart of servanthood is so present from the very young stages of a baby Christian to the admirable position of Senior Pastor!

Sunday afternoon was a "wow" moment for me. Garrett, Chrystin and I went to Penang Asam House (newly renovated now and very nice, but the new renovation isn't quite what amazed me) for lunch. Because there was no space in the other table with the rest of our friends, we sat at one table near the kitchen, made our orders, and waited lah.

Garrett and Chrystin's food came first, served by one of the staff. As their food was placed down before them, I was thinking who would be serving me my food. So I went into observation mode and I noticed how busy the place was, with customers filling every table and even more lining up way past the counter (for a while, in fact, the line was never shorter than the counter). Then I took note of the few employees (at least at the time) there, the same faces walking in and out of the kitchen, serving customers, making the drinks, taking orders, cleaning tables..

And so I saw my Senior Pastor walking out of the kitchen multiple times to serve people their food, on the side of taking their orders and serving them drinks at the counter. And, to say honestly, I suddenly had this thought that I didn't want him to serve me my food (don't get me wrong, I will explain why in a moment) But wouldn't you know it... only minutes later, he stepped out with two plates in his hand and immediately I knew one of them was mine >_< ... It's not that it was wrong, but I felt rather odd having my Senior Pastor serving me - literally.. not just a simple chore or assistance or a favour. I don't know what anyone else would think, but I felt at that moment that I didn't want him to serve me, I wanted to serve him!

Now THIS is a classic and very clear example of a servant leader! That's right, sorry to disappoint some of you but being a leader is not just sitting back like a tau keh and giving orders =D Pastor Tim's always coming up to people saying things like, "You are the best" or "I'm inspired by the way you guys serve"... Someone should go to him and tell him that! What's more inspiring than someone of a "leader" position lowering himself to the "waiter" position?

Which reminds me.. this was the only time I felt like wanting to work in an eating place.. =)

Virginia Tech massacre - the enemy's works through the works of the world

After catching up on the Virginia Tech massacre recently on CNN.com.. I now see fewer articles, fewer videos related to it - the sorrow may continue within the community there, but the news needs to present the world with other updates as well.

As I followed up on the case through news videos and articles, I feel angered, disappointed, stunned..

There's alot I can say about the shooter in this incident.. (sometimes I'm unsure whether to call him the suspect or the victim) But I can summarize his condition to be lost... in need... unministered to.. cracked.. slaughtered.. and died..

This guy was cared for by his housemates, he was sent for counselling out of the police's concern, yet among all those people who knew him.. there was not one willing to share the Gospel with him.

I know, I talk big. I don't truly know his background, nor do I know his environment, yet I dare imply "someone did not do their job of sharing the love of God with him". Moreover, I know I can be plenty reluctant to do exactly that due to many factors.

But this is a good example of the Bible's true words saying the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. One character, driven to madness by the world and his thoughts, simply needs to flip the coin and make the decision to act to take many lives to the grave with him.

I'm slow at acting, afraid I may mess up, afraid I can't do it, but that doesn't mean there isn't a burden in my heart. I'm still asking the Lord to give me the love, urgency and discernment. If it is HIs will, maybe one day I'll finally step out of my blurness and comprehend.

Week 13 Part 2

Yes.. List of things I need to do by next week

Final Project
1. Background camera movement in Toon Boom
2. Compile and bind journal
3. Search for and find sounds/music for final production
4. Insert sounds and synchronize with final animation
5. Check up on entire group progress to make sure we have at least 80% done by Monday
6.

History
Finish/finalize 50% of history journal (in order to give grace time of two days to finalize entire thing)

List of things I need to do by Week 15:

Final project
1. Finalize final animation for all three members
2. Finish countdown
3. Check on creation of logo and end credits of group
4. Create CD cover
5. Burn animation work in CD

History
Be FINISHED and submit

List of things I need to do by Week 16:

Methodology
1. Box fold
2. Walk Cycle
3. Finalize Stubby
4. Finalize flour sack
5. Finalize tail wave
6. Finalize bouncing ball
7. Finalize balloon

Drawing for Animation
1. Finalize head rotation
2. Finalize body rotation

History
Be ready for final test

I cannot depend on my own strength to finish this, it's crazy to think I can. I pray God will give me a boost to get me through this.

Week 13

And we're slowly..burning out..

AMD5, here are the Journal and Proposal details:

Journal

1. Story
2. Roughboard
3. Storyboard
4. Character Development
5. Colour model
6. Model sheet (BW), Character line up (Colour)
7. Research
8. Layout
9. Sound (Where you got the sound from)
10. Story Treatment
11. Environmental design
12. Analysis

Proposal

1. Project Name/Title/Duration/Unique Selling Point
2. Production Schedule/Timeline
3. Production line-up (your team, ranks people in your team hold)
4. Proposed budget
5. Proposed distribution plan

Operation: Survival

I have just come to the realization of how much work I have, and how little time I have to finish it..

Without God's grace, I WILL fail this semester.

I am up at 4am constantly, I barely get enough sleep each day.. I keep myself locked up in my room when I'm not at school or church - keep your distance from me, because I don't want to be bothered while I am working. If I do not get physical literally, you can be sure I my imagination will be running wild.

Reviews

Wow, I've found a site full of reviews on Happy Feet! I should search for reviews on other movies too.. who knows, some of them might actually come in handy for my history documentation!

Mid-week-11...

Hornbill keyframs are done, a few more in-betweens to do and that's that - then the actual design of the hornbill needs to be finished =)

Not much progress on history documentation - have been busy with other work. I'm determined to watch TMNT in time to talk about it. I have, however, a Tom and Jerry review for my journal. I've noticed that the Tom and Jerry cartoons that are either storylined, produced or directed by Chuck Jones.. have a far too strong similarity to The Road Runner Show - the character design, the gags, the movements.... Tom and Jerrys done by Chuck Jones are so different from ones done by Hanna-Barbera =P

Trying to study both History and Film Structure notes for next week. *deep breath*..

1 April 2007

Happy April Fool's Day everyone =) Glad it's a Sunday..

History final project progress: working on the brief history of animation now - will be done by today, I'm sure of it. I've gathered quite a bit on The Chronicles of Narnia, have not thoroughly looked though it - will do so later =)

SOLD OUT is less than a full month away, people =)

And I just bit my tongue.. ouch =(

History of Animation - Final project

It is the 31st of March, 10.46 am

I've decided on the movies I will definitely work on

2005 - Narnia

2006 - Cars, Happy Feet, Renaissance

2007 - TMNT, Charlotte's Web

I've decided if ever i do not manage to get my progress down on paper, I'll get it done here =)

Steadily paddling down the river, rocking down the rapids

It's 12am, I slept 6 hours at 4pm-11pm, so now I plan to stay awake to finish some work.

It is clear in 2 Peter, that it is important for me to be on my guard. And I think at this point of time, it is the strongest message I can receive because I can feel the enemy all around me in the day 4 times a week.

It is difficult. But 1 Cor tells me to stand firm in the faith, and it's what I will do.

I've decided to post up some photography assignments of mine from last year =) It's pretty safe now that I've already gotten my results..hahah..

This is Carol's flute - an excellent model, with a touch of orang paper dispersing the studio light

Gorgeous















Max's watch against a piece of wood - wood's desaturated. Effect suggested by my lecturer =)

SOLD OUT Album Launch

28th April night @ ECF

29th April night @ KDU

Do come - it will be awesome =)

LiveWire Conference

Okay, I will say a few words about the LiveWire conference since other people have said so much.. and since pictures are supposed to be worth a thousand words, I won't say too much or the post will be too long to read ^^

The conference was awesome, an event I almost can't describe in words. Personally, for me, I think the whole learning experience in different aspects was what made it so great. But let me make it clear, it wasn't just learning photography techniques that was amazing - it was the whole experience, especially the part on encountering God =)

Aha, I've gotten you wondering. Good.

Bwahaha.


Salt and pepper always go well together



















Louis Pang demonstrating for us

















Now, if you have any hint of respect at all, I'd appreciate it if you asked me before taking any pictures from my blog. You respect me, I'll respect you. Thank you =)

I've decided to post more pics on my blog. I know of some people who want to see them. But some other time.. I have work to do.

A true slogger...

... but I read cop blogs =)

Week 8 and we're only getting busier.. production time or we're dead meat for our final project. By God's grace, by God's grace..

The LiveWire conference I attended last weekend (9-11th Mar) was awesome - too much so for me to write here... I might give a testimony sometime during SNL, do come =)

5 March 2007 - Morning prayer

It's Bee Sean's birthday, happy birthday Bee Sean!

Today has been an awful day. It started off okay, with a test during History that I could actually do. Then as the afternoon came, I became tired and sleepy (slept at 4am) and afternoon class revealed how short of time we are in our final project, which set quite a workload on my shoulders and stress in my mind.

I missed the bus at 4pm, which I planned to take home so I could walk to the print shop before it got late and print something that really would have been most appropriate to print today. Maureen was nice to bring me back though, so at 5 pm I made my way to the print shop, spirits lifted slightly knowing that I could get this task done.

At the print shop, I discovered that my Illustrator file would not open, and I had no JPEG copy with me, so i couldn't print it, and that was a huge disappointment for me. So I picked up some things from the art shop and made my way back.

Then I've come to realise that I forgot to say my morning prayer.

Every morning, when I wake up, I feel it's only right to thank the Lord for another day and prayfor the upcoming day. But this morning, I woke up, ate and caught the bus, and forgot completely about my morning prayer.

That probably explains why I am low on stamina, low in spirit, low on patience. The one day I forgot to invite the Lord to be in my life for the day, is the same day things start going wrong and I start losing the ability to handle them and my emotions. That is not what I call a coincidence.

Will your absence make me forget?

Challenges is something that has been very significant to me for the past year. I say significant because not only do I notice I am being challenged, but I understand the purpose of such challenges and I realise the benefit I get from them. I'm not sure how true it is if I were to say I'd miss them if they went away. Maybe I would, to a certain extent.. but I know that as long as I have this beating heart, I will face trials that are meant to develop me in one way or another.

Now hear this: Two people I know and whom I care for are leaving Malaysia, and though I believe God will reunite us someday, the thought of not seeing them, or talking to them hurts me. I do not doubt God's decisions in bringing them away, in fact I hope and pray that they find the calling He has set out for them while they are gone.

But how long will we be away from each other?

If we neglect to be in contact for a full five years.. will I forget? I fear I will. I don't think I forget that easily, but what if I do? Someone once joked that I would forget that person eventually sometime down the road.. I put on a good face, but inside I felt afraid because I do not want to forget those I love and care for. To imagine that I could be that absent-minded, it gives a platform for the works of the enemy, which is obviously not good at all.

So, if it hurts to see two people leave, how will I bear leaving the whole family? I will be leaving, I hardly think I can avoid that.

We'll see, when the day comes.

A new day, a new experience

There are many things I have not seen, heard and experienced. But i truly believe that the past few days has educated me on some aspects:

1. The different levels of response to different kinds of events

2. The indifference and lack of interest in some events versus the enthusiasm and amount of planning that goes into other events that are just (or maybe more) as time and effort-consuming as the former

Personally.. I am shocked..

Stunned.

Memories in a lightbox

As changeable as the weather they say? The weather doesn't really change that quickly. A more appropriate saying would be, "as changeable as how many times one would need to change outfits in Malaysia's weather just to keep comfortable".. (with the exception of Kuching *glowing smile*)

But indeed, as changeable as the weather. I have concluded that the culprit is tiredness. It has always been, it might always be.

But it's okay because even in this state of idleness (which I pray will pass over before the night ends), I remind myself that there are many tasks for me to do, many fruits for me to harvest, and that the year will be a good one when God's will is done.

I do not look forward to next week. Two people I know will be leaving simultaneously, and I do know for a fact that I will not be seeing them anymore for a long time. One longer than the other, and that makes it worse to think about. I never look forward to goodbyes.

But hey.. I get to keep the lightbox.. I shall treasure it =)

Just for the record...

Lately, it is not often I face this battle that I have grown familiar with. But this time it's a little different. Not much, just a little.

I don't know how much longer I will really think about this - probably not long. But just for the record...

It just didn't feel right.

Maybe it never will.

We'll see, when the Lord's will is done.

21 Jan 2007

The first day of school has gone.

Progress check...

1. Fresh start in History and Style of Animation 1 class and Film Structure class

2. Catching up with classmates and schoolmates - AMD and ADOM *do* relate with one another!

3. Made a new friend

4. Ran into a few old friends

Progress check?..

Step by step.

2007

2007 - a new year, a new start, a new vision

Let's go.